a week ago fall semster got started. i saw my friends that was prett awesome. and my class seems ok except one class. one of my class is based on conversation and end of this semester i have to do 15 min conseling session using any strategy i will learn. yeah sounds fun but man, it s tough. i hope this class gives me another oppotunity to find my self and change my thought in a good way.

anyway, in this fuckin awesome class i got a homework. and if anyone can help answer my question, please.  this is my question. " tell me something important thing to describe who you are and tell me why you choose the thing. I hope someone answers me this question. also this is my psychology class but it does not analize about u so dont worry and free to answer !!!!thanks

yeaterday i got back from Nagoya. i went there to see my friend. we are from different prefectures in japan. two of them are from Nagoya and one is from Toyama and i am from kobe in Hyogo prefecture. we dont have really common things except we go the same college in OK. we spent fuckin awesome day!!!!  we havent seen each other for about two months.but in america we often hang out so they are like my bros. around them i dont need to care anything couse they know me and i know them. hangging out withem was so much fun!!!  we talked a lot and laughed a lot. that was fuckin FUN!! but one of my friend could come there. that was sad. he is two years younger then me but he is a great man. when i heard he can t come with us, i was very sad. but anyway when i go back to talequah i can see him. that time i will talk to him a lot. i can t say what we are gona talk though though...  hehehe

later i will talk about  my crazy friends. cya

Man, i dont wana be here any more!!! i guess it s a rain season in japan. everyday i see rain and hear the sound of rain and  it s too humid here.... since i got a car license, i went to drive but... it s always raining. i could have more fun but that rain just made me mad.  today i was about to go to shopping but i looked up the sky and  water just dripped down to my cheek. I was like ' Man again!!!'  i just rode on my car and just went to driving instead of shopping.  i just drove around my city but it was better than i expected. i was thinking of my future, my girlfriend and my friends( yeah, sorry but not u, hehehe) and Yeah just driving is fuckin awesome!!! i feel same as u, Naoki!!

yesterday, i went to see my high school friends. i was so happy to see them again. and also all my friends already got a job. they will start to work next year.  i did not say anything but they noticed how i have been feeling. one of them just sat next to me and put his hand on my head and he said to me one thing "i m proud of u". it was touching my heart but i did not say anything i was almost cried... it was huge huge huge words to me cus i alway tried to catch up with him at any field,,, playing soccer, running, studying,,,etc. we always got fight. i saw him as a rival but he never think me as a rival.

finally he said to me that words......  i have to do my best more....

9days ago, i was so happy. i didnt need to think anything. at that time i was really really having good time. time passed so easily. that was like heaven. i did not need to think my future, goal and anything. i just needed to enjoy the moment. but now... i m afraid....  i am,,, like walking in the dark. can not see any and afraid. i dont know what is right to do now and nobady knows it. but i have to be strong just cus i like being with u. for the future i need to run on my way even that is dark. i have to run until i see my goal. now you are not here with me. nobady shows me the way to go. i must find it by my self..... u always support me. and this time this is my turn. thus, i will do whatever i can do now to be strong and to support u in the future. maybe i am on the wrong way but even if it is, i dont look back and go back, i just need to go futher... that s what i am.